Could she be any cuter??
Hunter dropped a chunk of dry watercolor paint out of the box...and Olivia found it.
Monday, August 25, 2008
Friday, August 22, 2008
At a Loss
"Plan for the worst and hope for the best" is a motto that Joel has always lived by. I think it's a good one, too. We were all hoping for the best. And I suppose it could have been worse. But when you are talking about the affect on someone's life, 'it could have been worse' just doesn't cut it.
It's bad enough.
The thoughts in my head are just swimming around in messed up circles. I just keep thinking "Why didn't I tell her I loved her more?", "What must be running through their little heads as they go to sleep tonight?", "I hope she isn't too scared, all alone"...and so many other things that as I think about them, I can't help but weep.
I just wish there was more that I could have done, that I CAN do now. I hope she knows how much I love her...how much we all support her and how we will do anything in our power to make things easier...if there even is something we can do.
It's bad enough.
The thoughts in my head are just swimming around in messed up circles. I just keep thinking "Why didn't I tell her I loved her more?", "What must be running through their little heads as they go to sleep tonight?", "I hope she isn't too scared, all alone"...and so many other things that as I think about them, I can't help but weep.
I just wish there was more that I could have done, that I CAN do now. I hope she knows how much I love her...how much we all support her and how we will do anything in our power to make things easier...if there even is something we can do.
Tuesday, August 12, 2008
Wait...I still have a blog?
Yeah...I fell off the face of the earth for a while. What can I say? It's Summer, I have 3 kids and craziness all going on and my friends all have craziness going on, so when I have a free minute, I try to think of someone other than myself for a while. I'll just update and then hope that as we work into Fall, I'll be better.
1. I figured out why Olivia wasn't eating well when I laid her down one day and realized she had 4 hard little white lines on her top gums. Poor baby is cutting her 4 top teeth all at once!
2. My platelet count had been doing okay (staying above 30k and even going up to 42k on it's own) but it dropped out to 19k last Thursday. I had to take a round of Dex and had my couple days of side-effects and am now starting to feel better again. My count was 84k yesterday.
3. Will is registered for Kindergarten! That was so exciting and scary at the same time. On the one hand, I look forward to this stage of my kids life, but on the other, I don't want to lose my baby...and I don't want my baby to lose his innocence. Does anyone else out there struggle with the balance of preparing your kids for 'real life' and wanting to protect them from everything that could ever affect them? I can't think about it too long or I make myself crazy.
Doesn't it all seem so simple when you're just in the "let's have a baby" stage? I know we considered the seriousness of being parents, but honestly, you never really know what you're getting into.
4. Joel started a new job! He's repping tile/hard surface for Emser Tile. I think this will be a good change for him, and he's for sure excited about the job.
Okay...that's it for now. I have stuff to do.
1. I figured out why Olivia wasn't eating well when I laid her down one day and realized she had 4 hard little white lines on her top gums. Poor baby is cutting her 4 top teeth all at once!
2. My platelet count had been doing okay (staying above 30k and even going up to 42k on it's own) but it dropped out to 19k last Thursday. I had to take a round of Dex and had my couple days of side-effects and am now starting to feel better again. My count was 84k yesterday.
3. Will is registered for Kindergarten! That was so exciting and scary at the same time. On the one hand, I look forward to this stage of my kids life, but on the other, I don't want to lose my baby...and I don't want my baby to lose his innocence. Does anyone else out there struggle with the balance of preparing your kids for 'real life' and wanting to protect them from everything that could ever affect them? I can't think about it too long or I make myself crazy.
Doesn't it all seem so simple when you're just in the "let's have a baby" stage? I know we considered the seriousness of being parents, but honestly, you never really know what you're getting into.
4. Joel started a new job! He's repping tile/hard surface for Emser Tile. I think this will be a good change for him, and he's for sure excited about the job.
Okay...that's it for now. I have stuff to do.
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